Redeeming

Open up. Do I really dare?
Guess it does not really matter
Coz I am such a good an actor
Can look at her again tomorrow, like I really care.

Hate myself for the fake I am
For not saying what needs to be said
Next minute I get up to say, "yes mam"
"I agree". Nodding my head to whatever she say.

 I asked myself for reasons
I didn't find any
But I realize I am one of the many
Who changes according to the season.

Why do I insist on staying

Why do I insist on staying,
When it's time to give up?
Why do I keep on fighting,
When nothing goes right anyway?
Till when should I keep pretending,
to believe in a better tomorrow ?
Till when should I fake smiling
midst of all these miseries?
Why do I insist on staying,
When it's time to give up?

Why do I insist on staying,
When I know it's time to give up?